My Story
She named me BumbleBee Tuna. That was what she called me. At least until I threw everything away. I got in touch with a friend from my high school years. She was a doctor and I had always wanted her to meet my children. I was never really attracted to her when I was younger even though she was five years older. It feels cool to hang out with a college senior when you are in high school especially if they are a girl and you are a guy. We stayed in touch for a little over two years. Then fifteen years past and I decided to google her name one day. Up she pops since she is a doctor and there are hundreds of physician review websites all over the internet. I called and we began to catch up on what has happened to each of us in the last 15 years. Unfortunately she was going through a bitter marriage with her cheating husband and was growing more and more depressed. I felt bad for her and wished to help but it would seem that this was not one of my best decisions.
My relationship of 8 years was good but I was growing unhappy with certain things. I realize now, that is why I contacted my friend. For the next 5 months I would put the most important person in my life through the worst time of her life. My significant other was in love with me until I broke her heart repeatedly. I refused to give up my new friend who was starting to have feelings for me. I was unaware that I was her white knight and she was looking to be rescued from her terrible husband. My wife upon first hearing of me contacting a female from my past became immediately uncomfortable. I took this as her overreacting and not letting me be me. The unhappiness with my life started to boil over. It boiled over so much that I ended up hurting my wife by continuing with the lies and keeping in touch with my friend even after she forbade me to. "It is either me or her," she said. I did give her up at one point but she kept contacting me and my wife thought I was the one at fault. To make a long story short at one point my wife kicked me out of our apartment and I thought our lives together were over so I proceeded to actually sleep with my friend. After a few days my wife calls me up and says she wants me back. I tell her of my tragic mistake and she says she still wants to work it out.
Sleeping with someone else can really ruin a relationship, especially one with a very jealous husband or wife. I had promised to never cheat on my wife yet I did. I failed my test and lost her trust. I sit here now, even after the arguments and the begging of forgiveness and the hurt feelings, and wonder what I was thinking. Here is someone who has always gave me support and always wanted the best for me yet I still ate of the apple. Temptation is as powerful as you allow it to be, is the lesson learned. I have lost the most important person in my life and the most perfect woman for me all because I was blinded by temptation and anger. Please heed my warning that you should look at what you truly have and cherish what you have, because what is on the other side isn't worth it. Now if you are unhappy within a relationship/marriage than talk to the person and discuss the issues that make you unhappy. If they don't wish to listen or ignore your requests, than leave but cheating does nothing but cause unnecessary pain for the both of you. I cannot change the past, no matter how much I want to, because if I could I would love and cherish that woman for the rest of my life. But the opportunity has passed me by and I stand here now looking for guidance from God to help me learn from my mistakes. Don't take the same path I did, because it is one filled with pain, sorrow and loneliness.